If they had an option for Mood: Befuzzled...

I really don't know what to think. I've been so busy with RL I haven't been able to keep up with everything as it developed. I like to think I'm fairly intelligent, but I was completely fooled. At the same time, I can't say I want Thalia thrown out either; some part of me rejects the idea of total ostracism. Heh. Having been ostracized when I was in school, I'm reluctant to do it to anyone else, regardless of provocation; only explanation that makes any sense to me, anyway. Not that anybody believes anybody right now. I'm just...really confused, puzzled, befuddled...

I literally cannot understand this, can't wrap my mind around it. Doesn't mesh with my view of the world;) Loneliness I can understand. Wanting friends I can understand. Even wanting to be famous and the center of attention I can understand, but this method I just don't get.

RL's confusing enough right now; think I'm gonna sleep on it and see if I can adjust better in the morning...this sorta pre-empted anything I was going to say about life in general.