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Losing Friends
Oct. 15th, 2003 04:38 pmTwo karate classes at once is obviously a *bad* idea...I'm *still* sore;)
In other news, that dustup on Thalia's LJ brought back some unpleasant memories. I actually dreamed I was in high school again, only there were more people there than there ever were at the high school I attended. And I reacted differently, too. In HS, I kept quiet and hoped they (about 10-12 max) would leave me alone. Didn't work, but that's the only thing I knew to do at the time. (I had major self esteem issues) In my dream, there were some 30-50 other people in the room, laughing and trying to grab me, and I shoved 'em all out of the way and left. I actually yelled and shoved and...did something about it. How odd. Dreaming about HS is weird; my 10 yr "reunion" is next May, after all. Not that I particularly want to see them; there were only 3 of us, neither of them was very nice to me, and two of us are still in the same church, so we see each other frequently anyway.
Of course, the whole losing-a-best-friend issue struck me badly, too. Back in March, just in time for my birthday, I lost two friends and found out another wasn't really a friend to start with. That one went to one of the others and told her I said she was going to Hell because she was Catholic, which I never said! Anyway, it took two weeks to find out about this because she was avoiding me; she never asked me if it was true, and that hurt most of all. Well, the "looking through" me every time she passed was just as bad...
The third friend I managed to lose long distance; she'd forwarded something to a lot of people at once, and since those "forward this to everyone you know" emails are a good way for spammers to collect email addresses and since I didn't want that addy going out to spammers, I replied to all and asked that they remove my email addy before passing it on. She took it badly and refused to speak to me again; no answer to my emailed apologies, no answer on the phone when I called. Happy Birthday! My parents tried to cheer me up, but I was majorly depressed. Thought I'd gotten past it, but those memories still hurt...
Ah, I have RL issues to deal with; gotta put this behind me. Not a big sports person, but the AOL welcome screen headline asking about curses got me; poor guy - all he wanted was to catch a ball, and now he's being publicly threatened by other fans...
In other news, that dustup on Thalia's LJ brought back some unpleasant memories. I actually dreamed I was in high school again, only there were more people there than there ever were at the high school I attended. And I reacted differently, too. In HS, I kept quiet and hoped they (about 10-12 max) would leave me alone. Didn't work, but that's the only thing I knew to do at the time. (I had major self esteem issues) In my dream, there were some 30-50 other people in the room, laughing and trying to grab me, and I shoved 'em all out of the way and left. I actually yelled and shoved and...did something about it. How odd. Dreaming about HS is weird; my 10 yr "reunion" is next May, after all. Not that I particularly want to see them; there were only 3 of us, neither of them was very nice to me, and two of us are still in the same church, so we see each other frequently anyway.
Of course, the whole losing-a-best-friend issue struck me badly, too. Back in March, just in time for my birthday, I lost two friends and found out another wasn't really a friend to start with. That one went to one of the others and told her I said she was going to Hell because she was Catholic, which I never said! Anyway, it took two weeks to find out about this because she was avoiding me; she never asked me if it was true, and that hurt most of all. Well, the "looking through" me every time she passed was just as bad...
The third friend I managed to lose long distance; she'd forwarded something to a lot of people at once, and since those "forward this to everyone you know" emails are a good way for spammers to collect email addresses and since I didn't want that addy going out to spammers, I replied to all and asked that they remove my email addy before passing it on. She took it badly and refused to speak to me again; no answer to my emailed apologies, no answer on the phone when I called. Happy Birthday! My parents tried to cheer me up, but I was majorly depressed. Thought I'd gotten past it, but those memories still hurt...
Ah, I have RL issues to deal with; gotta put this behind me. Not a big sports person, but the AOL welcome screen headline asking about curses got me; poor guy - all he wanted was to catch a ball, and now he's being publicly threatened by other fans...
